well earlier i felt as though i was having A HEART ATTACK. could be because my appetite has been MIA for a couple..umm weeks. and im still a running along like a little spring chicken. me and jeen were spring chickens today in gym. wahoo. yea so i leave for the FL tomorrow at about 5 period. i get to eat lunchie with my babeh el, and then i must depart. kinda sad, considering this week has shown me that i might not be COMPLETELY cold hearted. but hey, lets not jump the gun, the jury's still out on this one. ive come to this conclusion as i have actually show affection towards patrick. somewhat anyway. it feels as though i felt when i first met him. all giddy and silly. yea well whatever. see theres the coldness again. personally i think the reason i hated him..okay not hated but i wasnt too infatuated...was THE WINTER. see this thing has run from the end of november to well, today, April. i have this seasonal depression thing, you know with the sun and not enough of it and trash like that. so i think now that it's past easter, which means closer to summer and sun, im getting better. just my guess?